I Wonder...

I sometimes wonder what I'll turn out to be.
I wonder what my life will be like when I get older, and where I'll end up living and what I'll be doing. I have lots of dreams for myself, but God has dreams for me too.
I wonder how they'll intersect, and what kind of super-life that will be.
I wonder who will still be my friends in 10 years, and I wonder how many countries I would have visited.
I wonder what God is doing in me here in Japan, and if I'm even accomplishing anything for Him by being here.
I wonder if I'm making a difference at all, or if I'd be just as useful at home.
I wonder why God called me here, the boonies of Japan, when I was still just a teenager.
I wonder if I'll end up coming back and living here for a long time, and I wonder why that scares me. I wonder what's actually going on in the spiritual realms right now; what battles are being fought, and which ones have already been won, which ground has been gained and which is still under attack.
I wonder what earth really looks like under all these false pretenses.
I wonder what a real Christian would look like, who wasn't scared of being different and who loved God with their whole heart.
I wonder how religion would change if Christians started acting like Jesus instead of just pretending.
I wonder how many people could be saved if just twice as many Christians as are doing it now stepped out and started living for God and not for themselves.
I wonder how the world would change if everybody wasn't so greedy with what they have, or don't have but want.
I wonder what the world would look like if everyone stopped living for themselves and actually thought of other people.
I wonder what the world would be like without fear.
I wonder what good God possibly sees in my heart and how he's going to make it more like his.
I wonder how many people I've told about God without even realizing it.
I wonder if it's just the easy way out by saying that we don't need to say anything to tell others about Jesus, that they see Him in the way we live.
I wonder if there's more I could be doing here, or even in this world.
I wonder why my main job here seems to be to teach people how to say "I like blue" instead of "Jesus loves me".
I wonder if I'm doing all I can for God right now, or if I'm really only doing part of what He wants me to do.
It's been quite the day...